princessnirvana

iTs August!!! August!! a month that full with desire…fhew!! exhausted of mopping around seems like putus cinter..hurt right?!dont want to feel it anymore.neva.hehe..enuff..24-7 like roller coster…wat2do.. i was born make u happy..so i have 2be honest seeking my faith…saya perlu jujur.its AUGUST again…it was 10 years ago.. lamanyer..6 chicky girls - aku+akmal(now mum wif a son)+farin+toda+haza+elly(pun dah kawin!)+haza- all d smckl frewnd so pissed of with this month.we promised not to make any ‘BIG or occation day’ on august..sbb TOYA’s besday!! haha..bengong..at that time everything was disaster bcause its AUGUST!!everything went ruined n badly..mcm cursed..n awful!!haha.. lawak giler..mis zmn buruk itu. but PROMISE JUS PROMISE.

AUGUST 2000 dtg lagik..n it was 20 AUGUST!..hehe :).i broke the promised!i maked a ‘good’ occasion..it was good..really good.fun..enjoy n happy..i was really happy that time..really happy..n ajal maut di tgn tuhan.thanks for the happiness n the moment.im redha with it!

AUGUST 2002 - MESS WIF SOMETHING yg tertiber menyesakkan!! sorry sir! i dont understand at all aper yg u taught us!but Sir the way u chased me like im very spoil 1..stop chasing me.. im a ddecated student.tensen tau!HOPE aku xjadi cikgu macamnih..this is malaysia k,its NOT IRAQ!!wif coincident im not reveal up the story but it just trackbacks..takde kaitan ngn yg idop ngn mati..the power of4 started to ‘pecah’..so messkan?!so sedihkan..but thats a life.we’ve been closed started 1999 when we just stepd in to the ‘bangi’ and the moments so jln mcm tu jer..our senior had betting yg dis ‘freakyfrendwifdffntprsnlty’ cant make any longer frend.thanks ALLAH till nw!

AUGUST2003- trying to b happy again..eventhough it was.then u flew away.as wat i told u ,i felt released after u quit!seems all the burden was harshing out of my head.but u really my dear friend .myeverdearesTfreind n i cant compared IT with ANYONEelse.ANYONE!.nice to know u NKS… I Kneew u felt same way too..im nt send u to the airport not bcose im mean but its better for us.H.U.R.T!

AUGUST2004- ITS summer..happiness bring us to life eventhou pehal plak tertibe aku kna campak ngn group yg menakutkan nih!! i have to mingle with them becouse im d 1 who left!!arghhhh.. satu malam xleh tido..nana!!i’m scared!!the bond become stronger!thanks..and a year passby..making more stronger.

AUGUST2005- got my scroll n started to lepak.i want to lepak!yes.sakitpalaxphm!lepak dgn membuat duit.a year past by?am i still the same person?still want to figure out who the ‘devious’ KHO? y she so inlovewif princessnirvana?is she still hypervexatious like 6years ago? pour moi, im still same person..still tyring to figure out about me,myself evn i knew im freacky weirdo!but it make me lookso sweeto!!hehe.i hv imgnefrends while i was child! i have strong ‘qarin’.im the 1 who sometims not very stable in emotion  especially when people do judging n insulting.dont care eventhou its not pointed at me..but im so DEFENCES!

I HATE people who underestimated. i hate people who miscourage, always look down on people n always thinks he/she always the correct 1 evnthou its not!i hate people who ade’ soBIG’ hasad dengki!i cant  stand that.Iknw i was the victim n if u r so .plz get rid of me!!getlost!

BYDWAY AUGUST is not BAD n CRUEL at all!! it just the way u appreciated it! biasala sometimes happy sometims not! nama pun idop?!but it was happy,fun,enjoy,and cruel too..bak kata QUOTES:- walaupun die buat jahat kat kita, tapi kita tetap menerima dan memaafkannya sbb kiter sayang kat die..tp berpadala.JGN melampau sgt sblm waktunyer.so utk AUGUST2006- So far spjng 20 ari nih…mcm masam+masin+pahit+manis+gula+tensen!something jerk me out!smile..wat else2do.

p/S: to McMedSEPET@iena@NANA@yeNa :- special sympathy to u ..heard dat u had denggi? dats y i rang u..tp xleh lama.oit..shah alam byk nyamuk eh?? tula ..konyer kolam depan umah tu suruh mbsa cuci ..but i heard rumors u dated ngn ENGINEER? ahad lepas..takkan lps balik dating kna denggi kot?..kuang2..eh masuk ospital ker? n special gratitute 2u too.. apalah dosa KEMERDEKAAN KE 47 yer utk ko ngn aku..thanks ..hahaha

TO all NyOnYet Inc.. thanks for all the conceRRRn n carRRRRing sms.. my mak edah not admit yet!kna delay lak..baru tau tadi.pnat je g ospital.kalo tak sure aku bule msk ospital lagik.hehe.n it supposedly 20 AUGUST N 21ST!..maybe 20 AUGUST not sesuai at all..by the way pray for my mak edah’s heatlh!merci beaucoup.. I LOVE U!yes i love u friend!SALAM ISRAK MIKRAJ!

WORDS

Before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can’t speak

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who’s crying out to God for a companion

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they’re barren

Before you argue about your dirty house; someone didn’t clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you’re alive and still around

Life is a gift
Live it…
Enjoy it…
Celebrate it…
And fulfill it…LIFE’S SHORT..PLAY HARD!

S07 not even in my playlist..bside exremely dislike their song xpesially si sephia tu.. wonder knpa rmai tul yg minat ngn dat song..all my cliques knw dat n  amie had asking me long time ago..Pourquoi vous détestez cette chanson ? c’est pertinent avec vous ? ..i said no..i just detest the song..dats all!
BUT..lately ..dis S07 song rapidly playd @flyfm n overplayed in my head..i was hitz.fm fans b4 but becz i do love fly guy  n all the seattle&britpop fresh songs rather than hiphop papentah ..here i go.N..dis hyper vexatious with cold-hearted girl finally distress her own feeling by sobbing her heart out..yeah..all d clique n TUA knw dat dis girl hardly express her reaction towards anything even sad stories..expessially by shed tears(my weaknesses..im sorry dat i cant easily sob..it juz  i cant)..n wat  4? wats dat 4?

IT IS 4 TIREDNESS,SLEEPINESS,EXHAUSTION & OVERTIREDNESS…over n over…keep come n go without notice.i’m tired actually.. serius SHIT n my head keep thinking in haste if i not jotting down here. kyrie dah penat. :s. n SERIOUS SHIT I DONT KNOW WAT IM DOING NOW!! GOSH!..it is 4 good?

i’m not saying im hopeless.. menerima kekalahan itu bukan perkara yg mudah krn kite juga ada ego.knp perlu ada kemenangan jika ada kekalahan?..sudah tentu semua mahu menang dan semua manusia perlu ade ego  krn itu membezakan thp seseorg manusia itu tapi kalo itu sudah kehendak yg maha ESA sapela kiter nk pertikaikanNYA.sudah tentu AL-MIGHTY ALLAH ada perancangan utk makhluknya.dis song keep playing in my head..oh my GOD!!its really haunting..xpesially the word and music really affect me..

aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat

mengapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
mengapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan

aku pulang…
tanpa dendam
kusalurkan.. kemenanganku

kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita

aku pulang…
tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku

rebahkan tanggungmu..lepaskan perlahan..kau akan mengerti semua..

YA!!! i wish to understand every SINGLE thing…

        " Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu.Dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu,padahal ia amat buruk bagimu,ALLAH mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui." Al-Baqarah,216

         "ALLAH memberikan hikmah kepada siapa yang dikehendaki-NYA.Dan barangsiapa yang diberi hikmah,sungguh telah diberi kebajikan yang banyak.Dan tidak ada yang dpt mengambil pelajaran kecuali orang-orang yang berakal" Al-Baqarah,ayat 269

Quant à moi..I tell myself that if things happened this way,because somewhere UP THERE was decided that way.. ”u.