princessnirvana

LA TAHZAN..

satu ari ni mmg kyrie tak tentu arah.. kerja pun kyrie tak dpt fokus.but when time to work..it has to be firm..

secepat buleh nk balik teratak opah b4 maghrib..alhamdulillah.. get a news from my cousin ..so lovely.x sabar nk bgtau.But then..im in a mess AGAIN..rasa cam nk meletop biler dpt msg tu.akhirnyer 2 beradik menangis jugak. n i cant stop tears teresak-teresak. i cant hiding anymore.im too sad.

i need u badly.. i need u so badly..really badly.plz…y u r not here when i need u around?!!!!where have u been? i cant stand anymore..n i have to mess 2 others people who i loved.THANKS!!

Ya Allah, hanya dgn mu aku mohon..insan kedil yg mmg byk kufur ngn MU ni..bnar2 perlukan pertolongan MU..kerana hanya Allah shj yg memilih yg terbaik untuk hambanyer.murah rezeki bkn semua org dapat.3 kali bukan semua org dapat.5kali bukan semua mampu.tapi ..

got kol 12.30am but i cant talk much…x sampai 5 minit plak tu.. i wish i can be there..really wish that i can be there.Ya Allah ya tuhanku..hanya pada MU ku sembah dan kumohon..apa-apa pun biarla dpn mata..smoga mereka sihat sentiasa dan dapat terus beramal utk MU,Ya-ALLAH..INsya-allah.

feelfree to pray my parent’s wealth.. mekah terlalu sejuk..ramai jemaah haji yg kurang sihat..

p/s:-akhirnyer menangis lagik.. n sure esok kyriesepet akan trus menjadi sepet. headachela!! ur not alone kyrie..thanks guys..

Salam Aidil Adha + happy nu Yar!!

masa2 yg tertinggal 2006 di habiskan dgn 3 anak muda..yg  takde kg.locally+originally kl-rian.(kna cr org kg nih br raya sonok skit!!kalo ader sawah lagi bgs.cuma.. xnak toilet luar umah jer.)hehe.after keje (lucky me..i ran from inventory stokcontrol.."u.) met amie+ al mas min+tet..went together @ jln tar..ape lagik minum cendol la..(rindu gak ngn cendol bangi~razwan bile nk blanja cendol bangi)..dedulu suke tul kitorg lepak minum cendol n mkn laksa..siap tambah2 setiap sabtu.org yg br operate tu lps gian la sbb dah lama x mkn laksa.wey noma..kalo ko ader sure dah cukup corumkan??tula saper suruh balik sabah..ndak ada semua tu bah..sini sjak.ndak ada laksa kan?rindu kan masa tu..zaman nurma tembam.

lpk ngn tet..n tak sedar out of time.crazee..srius crazee..running to the star-depart maluri,thank GOD trus ader 56.fuih..kalo tak sure mam!!arrive umah bukak tv.. kompius.. pesal ader takbir nih? kol tet.. ya-Allah upenyer esok raya Hj…my goodness.aku tak sdar lgsng.this is the day dat i waited since a few months ago.so sorg.."J. wat 2 do "n. 1st day eva.mcm duk oversea la plak.xmsk aper2pun.yeah i ate spagheti je..n kmas umah since been a while out of teratak opah.home sweet home.

after operated nih.. mcm bigaula..byk ngt yg lupe..truk tul ksan aesthetic nih.padah nyer kene aesthetic for 8hrs.my performance bcome so slow..ish..kuat lupe.sad thing my simcard buleh ilang.it was with me since at the end of 2000.(rm 280 tu..hmm..how come kyrie)..thats y i dont eva wish any1 for the greetings.smua no ilang la.

hope 2007 will fire up my life n my dreams come tru..yuhoo.run 4 ur life..n thou steps to go..its juz the age,friend..:P.insya-allah.to all of u…Salam aidil adha + happy nu year…hope ur dreams come true.

regards,

kyriehusniothman

hari-hari itu..

4dec06… genap sebulan kyrie operate.become much more better.tp sengal ngn ngilu tu ader gakla.. nk naik bukit+naik tangga ..mintak maapjela..nasib baik tangga teratak opah tak cukup tinggi.mkn still pantang lagik.. i dont eat ayam kat umah tp kat opis mkn gak..hehe..bengkak dah surut,jahitan pun dah tanggal..mcm tali badminton wei.mengeliat takleh.bersin+batuk mmg sakit..kna tekan kat stiches tu.pastu kalo ketawa pun susah.itu belum bab urinat .nak tgk dunia baru pun x dapek ..takut glak bab keberkatan tu.

arini jugak 4dec06 gnap 7 years my nenna..makwe MeenaBteDollah meninggal dunia.AL-FATIHAH..arini jugak gnap 4dec06 gnap 3thn idup ‘teratak opah’kembali bercahaya..

2days in a row im so happy.. smlm kyrie meet buddies..mcMed et aYONG.

LAMANYER x jumper nana..dr bln 6 @ 7 i guess..byknyer /mcm2 bende berlaku.hehe.wei lama wei.mereng tul.lagik happy biler dpt ‘ter’jumpa n ‘ter’shop kasut..syoknye..sampai 2 beli..huhu.. bkn sng nak jumper saiz 40 @ 41 tau!!! alang2 kalo dh  jumper knapa tak beli jer.. nike yg latest je yg tak smpat lagi..lagipun jln terhenjut-henjut2 lagikla.. nanti2la.. byk jugak yg kami ‘nYoNyEt’ kan..biarkan saja.

hidup+live+life..

then 4dec06 got called from 2persons yg tak diduga..huhu..

meet ijat laki bini (zuhai) kat klcc.they came all the way from tg malim.lepas settle kan keje then they konon nk ziarahla tu..huhu.thanks yer friends.

ijat-ijat.rakan vcdku..rakan hiestand,rakan leno,boleh thn la buat keje giler ngn

die.bykjugaygdiebantuwktukyriejatuh.zuhai yg dulu sgt cekeding ,dah besar dah!! sungguh tak sangka..sethn lebih tak jumper.yelah dah kawin syokla..

yeah i’m so happy.. sampai lani tersengih cam rooster jer..

bdway tinggal 18 ari je lagik..

MESTI ADER HIKMAH….lucky ur choosen!

Wah .. its completely thruth that I ve been lost from the virtual…

not only Lost dr net… lost dr kawan2 yg saya sayang…nuthing but thruth friends.. ive been lost bile hilang dr korg… I don’t know how other people feeling’s biler they don’t be friend /mingle with the others n can say buleh idup sendiri.. saya mmg tak ramai kawan… most of the closest friends r@friendster itself…(yelah budak ‘nakal yg x cantik nih’ mana ader org nk kwn ngn kiter..:(. …) act ader ramai gak kawan yg lain tapi dorg takde friendster n don’t believe in this ‘cyber’ world. Saya rasa jauh.. jauh biler sometimes I need friend but they cant be wth me… dis sycho girl  was raised lonely…. With the parents who so buzy yelah nk cari nafkah for their beloved children… with the bro n sis who enjoyed stay @ hostel rather than home n I m d only 1 yg tinggal kat umah … yes that’s y I always feel like im d only children @ that spooky but lovely teratak opah…

dlm masa tak sampai 2 bln (1 bln 1/2) mcm2 benda …the good things n stupids things happend in my life.. i always tell myself.. hidup manusia mmg tak sama jln nyer..semua hamba diduga OLEHNYA dgn mcm2 cara… as wat i mentioned ..ive been living in this freaking upside down for 25 years..saya mencari ISLAM..erti HIDUP ,Keberkatan…n keRedhaan..itu dah cukup biler saya dpt ketenangan tu …i was totally messup ..n i that time i really cant cope with it…im stuck with it.. like my father told me .. im  such a fool to worry like i do… lost with friends.. lost from the real world..n lost from soul…i dont know with whom should i shared with… sbb semua org ader agenda sendiri…dan saya tak perlu nk beban kan diri saya dgn org lain… aper lagik agaknyer slps nih?.bukan saya menduga.@mencabar.. tp sbb semua hamba tu lemah..lagik2 saya…yaALLAH jauhkan aku dr kekufuran …L.O.S.T.. when i see others peoples reallly enjoy wif their life for sure im sick of that…

BUT now i know…y i m d 1 who selected :).. every1 seems very happy with their raya…but me was choosen to have an operation for appendiks.. oh GOD..im celebrating raya @ hospital..raya ke10 wey.. cube ppikir skit.. even dedulu ader gak buat kelen pasal pnyakit nih kat cikgu,bukannyer mkn lemang n rendang byk pon..something yg aku langsung tak pernah pikir… i dont eat spicy food.every1 knows that.. tapi itula kan …tetibe je… i thout food poisoning.. esok g opis met DR.. they assuming me got pre appendix..amik drh+ urin test but everything shows ok..but frm the clasical theories..symptom apendik mmg ader..so they refer me to HUKM..the pain kejap sakit +kejap tak for last 6 hours.after admit @ hukm they took my blood test again n showed 12(drh putih)..meaning that already bengkak sbb pg tadi range die 4.8 n it cnt be more than 10.if more that that meaning that APPENDIX..will be meletop!n i dont feel sad at all when i was admitted n declared that i got this ‘disease’?… ALLAH tu maha KAYA… smua jerit perih yg aku rase masa last month n 1/2 really paid wif this sakit..aku redha sgt n really berserah.. waktu nih i realized that i have a wonderful people around me who really love n care about me even b4dis i did met wrong friend..im maybe not so lucky like others but the care ,the tenderness that friend n family gaved me really strengh me up.satu masa dulu .. ader sorg budak kecik yg really need attention from people bcoz she had inferiority complex ..expecially attention from her family… she always pray to be admitted @ hospital to c either her family love her so much or not…most of her goodfriend knws her dreams..:P. n I know my family loves me so much..n i cant compared with others. n im lucky to have a wonderful friends yg really can accept me the way im…guys from the bottom of my heart.. do appologize me for the things ive done…..n really hope..its will be the L.A.S.T..SO adik is ur dreams comes true?

* subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah 

di tepi kerinduanku

memandang hampa pada dunia

ku hanya orang biasa

tak lepas dari rasa kecewa

hanya padamu tempatku mengadu

pahit yg kini menyiksaku

aku percaya tiada yg sia-sia

semua kan ada hikmahnya

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah 

angan yg membalut mimpi

dulu melukis nyanyian hati

ku hanya orang yg kalah

satukan hatiku yg terbelah

hanya padamu tempatku mengadu

pahit yg kini menyiksaku

aku percaya tiada yg sia-sia

semua kan ada hikmahnya

p/s: b4 forgot..tahziah to SEHA… i was her die hard fan when i was kid especially the ‘PERSAMAAN N TITI MENITI SONG..AND ALL THE MATAHARI’n from her this ‘KYRIE’s name was created…

act x baik lagik nih.. bengkakla plak..nk duk pun sakit..mklumla 7cm.mcm org bedah bersalin pun ader tp life must go on..trying n trying to fix it up..

ikhlas

M.e.wHO.l.o.V.e.S.a.tt.E.nT.ti.On..

MeniKmAti zAmaN rEMaja yg X CuKup AKU nIKmaTi…

  tadi lps balik keje, i took LRT from KLCC to Masjid JAMEK..gopoh2 skit..kalut2 skit,MISUNDERSTOOD AGAIN!between Teratak OPah ’s Family.yeah we really bad in any bahasa n communication..once ur in dis family u will notice.received call dat they will meet me @ Mydin - nk beli brg g mkah.I heard  Mydin Maybank..went there.unfortunately  they waited me @ another Mydin ..mydin jln Tar also beside Maybank.wat the heck?! many times i asked .. Mydin jln tar or mydin dkt kolej F$#k tu ke? also opposite menara maybank tu?yealah..yg near maybank tu..JAWAPANNYA = i waited 4 them for almost an hour till heavy rain,kilat sabung menyabung!i rang ayah so many times but he didnt pick up d pon.. wahkalo awek kol cpat ajer :p.so next times throw je pon tu ayahanda tak pun baling kapala anjing lagik bagus.MMg Pissed off Giler! biler dpt tau slah tunggu tempat..ya ampun mcm baru sehari tinggal kat kl nih!hujan lebat mcm nk banjir.kl tau jelah kalo ujan sure banjir area situ.so wat else , lepak McDO jln hang lekiu tu la.
     LAST TIME I Was there @ the year of 2000 also on sept.wat a coincidence!HAVing lunch with My ‘KECIK’ Cik NUr + a friend from KLUANG…AFTER that,years by years HANYA lalu lalang saja dpn McD tu ..yelah while waiting for my 56@848 bus.SO 2day demi terpaksa n memaksa i bought McD bubur n teh panas( McMed plz i knw wat u thinking, i not ‘grand’ yet k!juz menjaga keshatan dan juge suara..hahaha) instead of i ddnt take my lunch yet so dine in je la situ.lately i was admited @ medical center sbb gastrik truk giler.mmg bengkok.stomach pain..even dpt consultation ngn DR Sagoo but till now x ok lagik.dahla RM81.60. mahal giler.nasib baik panel.kalo tak makin gemuk la aku.
    so then wat im try to ‘mumble’kan yalah..This McD is my ‘nice stupid playground’! selain other McDo la..since i was kid (dedulu kekecik xde tempat yg plg best kat kl nih xcept chowkit(its true!apa2 semua beli kat koperasi tu..n HANKYU JAYA!! My necklace was ditarik oleh peragut kt situ wen i was 6thn.)+Central Market(dedulu kat atas tu ader mcm ‘pusat hiburan keluarga’ ala yg tempat main game2 tu..so biler weekend je whole family gi situ)+DayaBumi-> mmg happeningla situ..sbb ader JJ ke Parkson ntah..xngatla.watelse…AmpangPark( i won BMX bycle kat situ ..juara KLtu!)+bile early 90’s SG wang mula menyinar…GRANDIES@ LOT10..SYOKNYER…huwa teringat zaman dolu2.huhu+ YOHAN(THE MALL- tempat budak maxwell yer?)+ the weld+jln Bonus+malay streets+Jln TAR mmg mcm tu xcept Psr mlm yg dulu nyer buat kat atas jln besar jln tar tu di’moved’kan ke pedestrian..kalo tgk wayang pun kat Odeon or tmpat panggung wayang tamil tu jer..RM3.50 TU!!HAHA..seat die jgn citerla..apalagi agaknyer perubahan yg berlaku @klnih? 2thn @ muadzam shah pun biler blk kl dah rase lain.agaknye if i have to transfer to another region nanti mesti lagik lain..kalo dah rezeki nk buat camner kan Mcmed..
    so dis McD  MMG tempat lepak gua.yelah biler cuti sekolah kitorg … me+along+angah will tunggu ayah @ mak kat situ.xpun kat CM..Xpun kat McD dayabumi yg dah tutup tu..then biler time skolah plak ..after klas B.A lepak situ ngn kekwan.lepas tuisyen pun lepak situ.lepas blk skolah pun situ.dedulu kalo kuar RM 10 pun cukup sehari..rm 0.50 @ rm 0.60 tambang bas.then bas naik harge 90 cen.McD RM 3-4.00 satu set.puas giler.siap ade balance nk blanja member tu.arini turn aku ..sok turn ko..hahaha..skang nih. semua dah berubah..semua harga dah naik. rokok pun arga naik.
    keadaan McD pun dah berubah even susun atur nyer mungkin sama..@ masa aku yg dah berubah?Mc D AS usual  buleh jadi tempat lepak,tempat ulang kaji+ dan tempat datingla agaknyer.. yg ramai pun teenagers je.budak skolah.No wonderla my dad alwitz ask and pissed me out ngn princessnirvana die yg sorg nih..asik lepak umah, tgk tv +enjoys DVD+VCD..sleep all day long till die pun naik myampah..hehe..i kept doing the same thing every week melainkan kalo ader hal..im imsomnia k.i cant sleep well while with 5 budak hitam A003.(”J.
    YEAH now im realized..yes i was ketinggalan utk menikmati my zmn ramaja. but wat the hell.. i was enjoyed the hell moment ayahanda!!yeah i enjoyed sleep too til hard4me to open my eyes..:s!!till now almost 4get aper yg aku dah buat 3 thn lps?where am i? n who am i that time? hmmm..
yeah wat done is done..wat past still the past..

‘ DONT CRY BECAUSE IT IS OVER.BUT SMILE BECOUSE ITS HAPPENED’ ”J.

my dad kol lagik..nk pujukla tu konon..konon suruh stay situ nk fetch..dah slah bg info sampai gua bengang..papentah..mkn sambil kenyang sambil PANDANG cermin +perhatikan org sambil gelakkan org then time for burn out my KALEROL..jlnla saya seperti biasa seorang diri ke arah jln Tar Untuk meet my parents n SPEND my time ngn them as usual…BIASALA my mak edah ..she’s looking 4 her ‘hantaran’ from my ayah..kalo xdpt sampai MIZK jadi DATIN (insya-ALLAH) PUN  x abis die citer pasal benda ‘hantaran’ tu..

AUGUST flashbackzz N ITs 20 AUGUST!

iTs August!!! August!! a month that full with desire…fhew!! exhausted of mopping around seems like putus cinter..hurt right?!dont want to feel it anymore.neva.hehe..enuff..24-7 like roller coster…wat2do.. i was born make u happy..so i have 2be honest seeking my faith…saya perlu jujur.its AUGUST again…it was 10 years ago.. lamanyer..6 chicky girls - aku+akmal(now mum wif a son)+farin+toda+haza+elly(pun dah kawin!)+haza- all d smckl frewnd so pissed of with this month.we promised not to make any ‘BIG or occation day’ on august..sbb TOYA’s besday!! haha..bengong..at that time everything was disaster bcause its AUGUST!!everything went ruined n badly..mcm cursed..n awful!!haha.. lawak giler..mis zmn buruk itu. but PROMISE JUS PROMISE.

AUGUST 2000 dtg lagik..n it was 20 AUGUST!..hehe :).i broke the promised!i maked a ‘good’ occasion..it was good..really good.fun..enjoy n happy..i was really happy that time..really happy..n ajal maut di tgn tuhan.thanks for the happiness n the moment.im redha with it!

AUGUST 2002 - MESS WIF SOMETHING yg tertiber menyesakkan!! sorry sir! i dont understand at all aper yg u taught us!but Sir the way u chased me like im very spoil 1..stop chasing me.. im a ddecated student.tensen tau!HOPE aku xjadi cikgu macamnih..this is malaysia k,its NOT IRAQ!!wif coincident im not reveal up the story but it just trackbacks..takde kaitan ngn yg idop ngn mati..the power of4 started to ‘pecah’..so messkan?!so sedihkan..but thats a life.we’ve been closed started 1999 when we just stepd in to the ‘bangi’ and the moments so jln mcm tu jer..our senior had betting yg dis ‘freakyfrendwifdffntprsnlty’ cant make any longer frend.thanks ALLAH till nw!

AUGUST2003- trying to b happy again..eventhough it was.then u flew away.as wat i told u ,i felt released after u quit!seems all the burden was harshing out of my head.but u really my dear friend .myeverdearesTfreind n i cant compared IT with ANYONEelse.ANYONE!.nice to know u NKS… I Kneew u felt same way too..im nt send u to the airport not bcose im mean but its better for us.H.U.R.T!

AUGUST2004- ITS summer..happiness bring us to life eventhou pehal plak tertibe aku kna campak ngn group yg menakutkan nih!! i have to mingle with them becouse im d 1 who left!!arghhhh.. satu malam xleh tido..nana!!i’m scared!!the bond become stronger!thanks..and a year passby..making more stronger.

AUGUST2005- got my scroll n started to lepak.i want to lepak!yes.sakitpalaxphm!lepak dgn membuat duit.a year past by?am i still the same person?still want to figure out who the ‘devious’ KHO? y she so inlovewif princessnirvana?is she still hypervexatious like 6years ago? pour moi, im still same person..still tyring to figure out about me,myself evn i knew im freacky weirdo!but it make me lookso sweeto!!hehe.i hv imgnefrends while i was child! i have strong ‘qarin’.im the 1 who sometims not very stable in emotion  especially when people do judging n insulting.dont care eventhou its not pointed at me..but im so DEFENCES!

I HATE people who underestimated. i hate people who miscourage, always look down on people n always thinks he/she always the correct 1 evnthou its not!i hate people who ade’ soBIG’ hasad dengki!i cant  stand that.Iknw i was the victim n if u r so .plz get rid of me!!getlost!

BYDWAY AUGUST is not BAD n CRUEL at all!! it just the way u appreciated it! biasala sometimes happy sometims not! nama pun idop?!but it was happy,fun,enjoy,and cruel too..bak kata QUOTES:- walaupun die buat jahat kat kita, tapi kita tetap menerima dan memaafkannya sbb kiter sayang kat die..tp berpadala.JGN melampau sgt sblm waktunyer.so utk AUGUST2006- So far spjng 20 ari nih…mcm masam+masin+pahit+manis+gula+tensen!something jerk me out!smile..wat else2do.

p/S: to McMedSEPET@iena@NANA@yeNa :- special sympathy to u ..heard dat u had denggi? dats y i rang u..tp xleh lama.oit..shah alam byk nyamuk eh?? tula ..konyer kolam depan umah tu suruh mbsa cuci ..but i heard rumors u dated ngn ENGINEER? ahad lepas..takkan lps balik dating kna denggi kot?..kuang2..eh masuk ospital ker? n special gratitute 2u too.. apalah dosa KEMERDEKAAN KE 47 yer utk ko ngn aku..thanks ..hahaha

TO all NyOnYet Inc.. thanks for all the conceRRRn n carRRRRing sms.. my mak edah not admit yet!kna delay lak..baru tau tadi.pnat je g ospital.kalo tak sure aku bule msk ospital lagik.hehe.n it supposedly 20 AUGUST N 21ST!..maybe 20 AUGUST not sesuai at all..by the way pray for my mak edah’s heatlh!merci beaucoup.. I LOVE U!yes i love u friend!SALAM ISRAK MIKRAJ!

WORDS

WORDS

Before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can’t speak

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who’s crying out to God for a companion

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they’re barren

Before you argue about your dirty house; someone didn’t clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you’re alive and still around

Life is a gift
Live it…
Enjoy it…
Celebrate it…
And fulfill it…LIFE’S SHORT..PLAY HARD!

JANGAN…

S07 not even in my playlist..bside exremely dislike their song xpesially si sephia tu.. wonder knpa rmai tul yg minat ngn dat song..all my cliques knw dat n  amie had asking me long time ago..Pourquoi vous détestez cette chanson ? c’est pertinent avec vous ? ..i said no..i just detest the song..dats all!
BUT..lately ..dis S07 song rapidly playd @flyfm n overplayed in my head..i was hitz.fm fans b4 but becz i do love fly guy  n all the seattle&britpop fresh songs rather than hiphop papentah ..here i go.N..dis hyper vexatious with cold-hearted girl finally distress her own feeling by sobbing her heart out..yeah..all d clique n TUA knw dat dis girl hardly express her reaction towards anything even sad stories..expessially by shed tears(my weaknesses..im sorry dat i cant easily sob..it juz  i cant)..n wat  4? wats dat 4?

IT IS 4 TIREDNESS,SLEEPINESS,EXHAUSTION & OVERTIREDNESS…over n over…keep come n go without notice.i’m tired actually.. serius SHIT n my head keep thinking in haste if i not jotting down here. kyrie dah penat. :s. n SERIOUS SHIT I DONT KNOW WAT IM DOING NOW!! GOSH!..it is 4 good?

i’m not saying im hopeless.. menerima kekalahan itu bukan perkara yg mudah krn kite juga ada ego.knp perlu ada kemenangan jika ada kekalahan?..sudah tentu semua mahu menang dan semua manusia perlu ade ego  krn itu membezakan thp seseorg manusia itu tapi kalo itu sudah kehendak yg maha ESA sapela kiter nk pertikaikanNYA.sudah tentu AL-MIGHTY ALLAH ada perancangan utk makhluknya.dis song keep playing in my head..oh my GOD!!its really haunting..xpesially the word and music really affect me..

aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat

mengapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
mengapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan

aku pulang…
tanpa dendam
kusalurkan.. kemenanganku

kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita

aku pulang…
tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku

rebahkan tanggungmu..lepaskan perlahan..kau akan mengerti semua..

YA!!! i wish to understand every SINGLE thing…

        " Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu.Dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu,padahal ia amat buruk bagimu,ALLAH mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui." Al-Baqarah,216

         "ALLAH memberikan hikmah kepada siapa yang dikehendaki-NYA.Dan barangsiapa yang diberi hikmah,sungguh telah diberi kebajikan yang banyak.Dan tidak ada yang dpt mengambil pelajaran kecuali orang-orang yang berakal" Al-Baqarah,ayat 269

Quant à moi..I tell myself that if things happened this way,because somewhere UP THERE was decided that way.. ”u.

 

 

Teratak Opah…26july

Happy 36^th  anniversary  for both mak n ayahanda.. may ALLAH bless both of u, us..

n teratak opah….percantuman dua individu  yang nyatanya berbeza dari segi keturunan,budaya,cara hidup,dialek, akhirnya menjadi ‘1′ kerana adanya persefahaman?kasih sayang?jodoh?faith?Dan kemudian lahirla generasi-generasi hasil dr perkahwinan ini.. so arbitrary….

What is the marriage?

MARRIAGE is the state or relationship of being husband and wife. It is also known a wedding, the ceremony of becoming husband and wife…Who is a couple should not enter into marriage without thinking about it seriously!! THAT’S A COMMITMENT!!BIG COMMITMENT..HUGE..VERY HUGE..

the responsibility by Giving it the strong support that u promised…

Do you believe in marriage? Do u believe in commitment?don’t ever think it easy… people always said, marriage like gambling..(u guys ingat main tikam ,baling dadu

or just like poker?)you dont even know what the real things will happen..Just like a box of chocolate..u don’t even knw what real inside.. What you hv 2 know .. just play safe and always remember its involving 2 big heart..afterdat..byk lagi hati yg mau dijaga.. Once u in dis era..u really have 2 strive 4it..u d 1 who play d game..

   Beside its not assurance of happy life..Pencaturan dua kehendak yg menjadi 1 boleh menjadi lebih baik atau lebih buruk…

hmm.. perlu ada toleransi

kan

?memahami

kan

?

satu-satu.  .how they blooming their marriage without any problem??

fake!!problem asam garam kehidupan? Maybe for some people..

      untuk anak2 yang hidupnya dengan keluarga bermasalah…bercerai–berai?, ditinggal ayah? ayah ku kawin lagi? hehe..mak bapak asik gaduh?tak gheti nak berbaik? so nk depend yg mana?.emakku tinggalkan keluarga kerana ikut boyprend or x thn ngn bad habit bapak? Consequence meninggalkan kesan buruk for their anak2..akibatnya.. their anak2  afraid of marriage…..and don’t believe in marriage.. ME?  I just wish 2b wif some1 very wasatiah, very understanding, very fatherly…and very-very….

Nowdays we can c a lots of spinster yg mampu survive without marriage..

not because they r egoistic..but if marriage only intense to disaster.. so why should we allow it? PEOPLE don’t want to get marry if they want to get suffer..They want happiness.. Prosperity, loveliness n so on.or maybe they don’t find d suit 1….

just a superstitious 2 make life so meaningful J makin dalam

ur

‘pusat’ makin jauh

ur

jodoh..meaning dat

ur

soulmate org jauh..(asalnyer)..hahaha…make sense..kalo diikutkan ngn my family history….me again? Yeah…same like u folks!!! Lost…

In d other hand, kesian juga biler tgk parents have to selamatkan their perkahwinan demi anak2 sdgkan both of them x happy at all…as a child..u have to please

ur

parents..bkn sngkan? & parents should aware of their children’s satisfaction….

Im not blaming anybody..n im not sciencethodology follower but in dis case.. I c, I learn, I understand their situation.. Paranoid! ..s.o.r.y..dat true! And very hard to find few good man..and vice versa nowdays!!! not 2choosy..But choosy in make sensed.

perkahwinan utk melengkapkan kehendak dan kemahuan antara lelaki dan perempuan… and its doesn’t matter if you will marry at the late age.. 30?28?35?40?or in early age.. and how old r u? r u prepared yet for setlling down?as long as u happy & ready for it n no matter when…just bring it on!

Sekadar renungan.. 8 jenis lelaki di dunia..

Hanya 4 saja yg tinggal sbb??

1)      Lelaki baik lagi gila Dadah.

2)      Lelaki baik sudah masuk Penjara

3)      Lelaki baik gila Lelaki – so pity! Love so blind,right?

4)      Lelaki baik masuk Serenti – biler nk abis blaja ni?

Yang tinggal hanya

1)      lelaki  baik ..mmg baik..

2)      lelaki baik tp xde usha untuk naikkan taraf hidop

3)      lelaki baik yg so-so- suka bohong?suka tipu?oh yeah.. Sweet talkerla nih..nk mengena jer.

4)      lelaki baik.. TETAPI  SUAMI ORG?- nauzubillah…

Perempuan pun x terlepas sama gak- sometimes… I ADMIT it!mmg ujud.. sbb perangai buruk ada di mana2kan..iman tak dpt dpt diwarisi..yg baik utk yg baik.. dan kalo dah sudah disuratkan dengan yg menduga…itu faith!so pray 4 your success..

Back to d topic!!! Our (my siblings n I )wish dat .. my parent’s marriage will blooming eva after,not matter wat happened..n live happy eva after..even kiter tau semua ini kuasa ALLAH. ’KUNFAYAKUN’ bkn sng nk bina empayar nih for all these years.. Hopefully I can make it thou’ no matter with whom… insya-allah.. …n for those who read my humble mumbling freaking blog…pray for my mum’s health. She will have her 1^st eyes operation on 21^st august. Thank you..takut gak.. hope everything going smoothly..

Beside I cant denied dat I love this spooky but lovely ‘TERATAK OPAH’ S Family..cant imagine be alive w/o u..

p/s: al- fatihah to arwah HANI MOHSEIN.. ajal maut di tgn tuhan..:(.

-Sincerely-

Lots of like K.Y.R.I.E

BEAUTIFUL DAY!!

KERANA ALLAH ITU ADIL..MAKA mesti ada SEBAB utk setiap bende yg berlaku..8 thn lps…  I met 1 naive girl..SHE just a girl BUT she taught me of ADER HIKMAH DI SEBALIK KEJADIAN…n there must b a reason for single things..mesti ader RAHMAT DI SEBALIK DUGAAN..something that i neva think n fgure out b4

everytime i pray,x lupe doa jauhkan dr sbrg dugaan..kalo buleh mmg xnk-langsung, tp kerana Allah itu adilkan..mesti ader sbb,mesti ader hikmah..aper hikmahnyer?aper sbb nyer?still observing n seeking.. ONLY ALLAH KNOWS Y! living in dis upside down for almost 25 years still NT enuff to teach me…HOW,WHY??jgn cuba di tanyer knapa,mengapa.. tanye pada manusia mmg takde jawapannya ..inikan pulak tanyer pada langit tua?!! is dugaan mengajar kita??tepuk dada tanye iman!

ISLAM TAUGHT ME to sentiasa redha n IMAN.semua org idupnyer tak sama..ader yg bhgian idupnyer bhgia tak terkata..malah ader yg lain terlara..rezeki msg2..TERANIAYA,DIANAYA..mintak dijauhkan..tp jika itu yg dijadikan dugaan..redhala saja kerana dugaan didunia apala sgt kalo nk dicomparekan dgn susulan bhgian akhir nanti..cuma..tabah,taqwa dan redha saja yg tak pasti lagi…

dugaan hebat dlam mencari erti Islam itu sendiri mmg tak semua org dpat rase. alhamdulillah..tp apalagi utk dugaan kali ini?Astagafirullah al azim..masih tak cukup lagi agaknyer redha dan taqwa itu..bukan sekali jatuh ..berjatuh2..alhamdulillah..aku redha ALLAH.JIKA BENAR AKU ALPHA..tunjukkan jalan itu..

how i can survive at the time i was 12?15?17?big challegend on 01′-02′? inikan plak yg sekecil hama …till now i still cant believd how i faced all d through disaster years..hehehe..damn…make me so inspired..haha..sjak itu selain tahmid,tahlil,zikir yg temankan aku since 6years ago  utk tidak memusingkan kepala aku..i also do need beautiful day’s song by U2..to released out the tensed!!lagu penenang lebih baik dr makan ubat penenang..kalo ubat penenang  like doa xpa..kalo pil kuda..truk plak nanti berhorse power..cukup2la addicted..its over my head!!i do like this song very2 much.. n it always be my favourite even dah tua,bongkok,rabun makin kronik.(nauzubillah),bercucu (aderker nanti?!hehe-insya-Allah)tp im who im.

here my meaningful lovely song.my fav eva after!!

The heart is a bloom
Shoots up through the stony ground
There’s no room
No space to rent in this town

You’re out of luck
And the reason that you had to care
The traffic is stuck
And you’re not moving anywhere

You thought you’d found a friend
To take you out of this place
Someone you could lend a hand
In return for grace

It’s a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It’s a beautiful day
Don’t let it get away

You’re on the road
But you’ve got no destination
You’re in the mud
In the maze of her imagination

You love this town
Even if that doesn’t ring true
You’ve been all over
And it’s been all over you

It’s a beautiful day
Don’t let it get away
It’s a beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Teach me
I know I’m not a hopeless case

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out

It was a beautiful day
Don’t let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I’m not a hopeless case

        What you don’t have you don’t need it now
        What you don’t know you can feel it somehow
        What you don’t have you don’t need it now
        Don’t need it now
        Was a beautiful day

c d last paraghraph…

aper yg kamu xde skng nih ..bende yg kamu tak perlukan .. n kdg2 kiter akan dapat bende yg kiter sendiri tak pnah tau

- as usual im not good in any bahasa..malay 6 masa skolah dulu..(trialla)

yer…A.L.H.A.M.D.U.L.I.L.L.A.H krn aku msih lagik muslim.SYUKUR